Wednesday, September 12, 2007


It doesn't look too different from last year.

I had an appointment with my surgeon today, he doesn't recommend surgery. I haven't really been able to sort out my feelings about that statement. Deep down in my heart I wanted to get them out, I want to get back to normal. This hardware is like a handcuff, always reminding me of things God showed me during that trial. I'm reminded of my frailty and my pride.

God showed me that I actually do need help and that I have a lot of pride that gets in my way. I have to "humble" myself and accept help from people.

Whenever I see the scars, feel the plate and screws, or feel it burn I'm reminded of uncomfortable things. I just wanted to be "normal" again. God doesn't want me to be "normal" again, He wants to keep these things fresh in my mind. And I do need reminders about these things.

So that is what I was feeling after I left the office, I was feeling sad because I didn't get my way on a small level I suppose. Life changes so quickly. Trials come fast, and if I got rid of the screws I might not be reminded of that trial and the things I learned.

So anyway! My brain is pretty much gone. I'm tired and I think I'll go get some water.


Sir Brian The Manly said...


jelvistar said...

Buck up little buddy! (okay, John is truly My Buddy

But you're still special!

jelvistar said...

Silly Dolls for boys from the 1980's

Anonymous said...

Oh my word. I love your comment Brian. =D

And Elyse~~~~
Call me?

Jahothanan said...

Pride is a difficult thing. It usually takes God to help us deal with it.

You've done a good job Elyse. God bless.

Anonymous said...

I miss you.
Please, gimme a call...?
Remember? We used to phone chat all the time. To a nauseating degree. =) Haha.

Love you...

Sir Brian The Manly said...

Don't die in Pullman!!!