I had a wonderful time yesterday, I was able to go and fellowship with some lovely ladies. I am so extremely glad that I call them friends and that they call me friends. I got to talk to each of them alone about things that God has been doing in my heart, and I was able to listen to what He's doing in their hearts. And I must say, the Lord is wonderful. Simply put, He amazes me.
I was able to talk to one of them on the car ride to the other girl's house about what God showed me on Sunday. And how He gently led me back into understanding His will for my life.
I will give you a bit of history. If a girl friend of mine were to ask me if I liked a guy I would answer, "No." That just makes everything simpler for me and I think it's true, most of the time. Some of the girls that ask me this question don't ask with a pure heart and simply wish to bug me, or to talk about "cute" things. I really don't need that right now. And really, I don't like anyone right now. But on Sunday I had been struggling with a certain person in mind aaaaaand it was pretty much retarded. lol. It wasn't even a "huge" deal, just passing thoughts that made me smile. Cutsie stuff that usually makes me want to barf. God knows my heart, He knows it every hour, every minute, every second, before I think a thought He knows it. He's known it since the beginning of creation and before that! It's so true.
He reminded me throughout the day of the purpose He has given me. My goal for right now.
"....Her aim is to be devoted to the Lord in both body and spirit.... that you may live in a right way in undivided devotion to the Lord." (1 Corinthians 7:34b, 35b)
I have in my Bible kind of an exclamation point by that verse, "I'm not even married and I'm not living in undivided devotion to the Lord!!!" I am continually amazed at how much my heart wanders....
So even though I have that purpose and I know how the Lord wants me to live I fail ALL OF THE TIME.
It was refreshing to be able to talk with my sister about my heart. Proverbs says that an honest answer is like a kiss on the lips (Proverbs 24:26). How true.. It was wonderful to get that burden off of my heart. What was even more wonderful is that we were able to fellowship in God's grace!
So as I said, on Sunday my purpose to give my undivided devotion to the Lord had kind of.... Well, slipped from my mind. God is good!!! And through little things throughout the day He reminded me of His wonderful love. He reminded me that I am part of the Bride of Christ, and one amazing day we will be at the marriage supper of the Lamb!!! I was listening to an old sermon on CD and I wanted to look up a passage my pastor had mentioned. So I looked it up, I thought he said Isaiah 62, but now I don't think he did. But I am very glad that I heard that. lol
"The nations will see your righteousness, And all kings your glory; And you will be called by a new name Which the mouth of the LORD will designate. You will also be a crown of beauty in the hand of the LORD, And a royal diadem in the hand of your God. It will no longer be said to you, "Forsaken," Nor to your land will it any longer be said, "Desolate"; But you will be called, "My delight is in her," And your land, "Married";
For the LORD delights in you,
And to Him your land will be married.
For as a young man marries a virgin,
So your sons will marry you;
And as the bridegroom rejoices over the bride,
So your God will rejoice over you."
(Isaiah 62:2-5 NASB)
My eyes wandered over to the other page and I read this, "I delight greatly in the LORD;
my soul rejoices in my God.
For he has clothed me with garments of salvation
and arrayed me in a robe of righteousness,
as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest,
and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels."
(Isaiah 61:10 NIV)
How good the Lord is!!! How He knows my heart and sees my desires.
"Find rest, O my soul, in God alone; my hope comes from Him. (Psalm 62:5)
Also that night was a full moon, which I was able to see before I went to bed. Another way God reminded me of His incredible love. I'm also reminded of the fact that I am fallen and until I reach heaven this whole "purposing for total devotion to the Lord" thing will just keep failing because I'm a sinner. But once I get to heaven, "....I will know fully, even as I am fully known." (1 Corinthians 13:12b)
I wanted to remind all of you of God's love. And I especially wanted to remind all the girls out there to find satisfaction from God alone. He's the only one who can truly satisfy you!