"I-I-I-I-I KNOW HOW TO TRANSFORM!!!!!"

I <3 Gnarls Barkley's song Transformer, it makes me want to dance.

You know what another thing makes me want to do? The "gradmax " makes me want to like.... Do something drastic. In my easy/Iwishicoulddropoutofitbecauseidon'tneedit class we have to go to this site and fill out this "gradmax" survey every week, it lets the teacher know how we are doing. If we aren't doing so well, like if we are feeling overwhelmed by stress the teacher will talk to us. The assessment asks questions like, "How are you feeling today?" and then they have a chart and you can like on how you feel. 1 being great, 6 being so-so and 10 being "Couldn't be worse..." And then you think you are done with the annoying personal questions and they give you like 10 MORE!!!!! Mary and I were sitting near each other in the compy lab and we would look at each other and laugh. Or think about clicking the "couldn't be worse" button. =P

Seriously, I'm in this class because I had to be to get into the program. I am not really doing this of free will. So it's hard when the teacher asks, "Why are you in this class?" I don't want to hurt feelings! And since I don't really want to be there I don't really want to open up and share my heart with people. Yes, I will be honest. But the whole thing with gradmax is they want to know our stress level and how much we worry about stuff. I'm sitting there thinking, I don't usually worry about stuff because I know Christ is in control. When I do worry I need to take it to Him, not my college's staff.

At least I get to hang out with Mary. I hope I get to see her next quarter too.

Oh and in the free planners they give out they have June as the "Gay, Lesbian, trans gender, bisexual month".... This made me sad and angry and confused.

It makes me so frustrated I must pull out the "ajkdhkjakjadskfjkas!"

They also have women's history month, or whatever crud they said. They had no men's history month. What's the deal? Where's the equality? It's so stupid and such a lie. You can't have unity without Christ being the thing that makes us one! He is the only way and the only truth! There is no other way.

I know this passage is long, but it's SO true. Since I was home schooled my whole life before now I was never really confronted with such blatant sin, such hatred of God....

18The wrath of God is being revealed from heaven against all the godlessness and wickedness of men who suppress the truth by their wickedness, 19since what may be known about God is plain to them, because God has made it plain to them. 20For since the creation of the world God's invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature—have been clearly seen, being understood from what has been made, so that men are without excuse.

21For although they knew God, they neither glorified him as God nor gave thanks to him, but their thinking became futile and their foolish hearts were darkened. 22Although they claimed to be wise, they became fools 23and exchanged the glory of the immortal God for images made to look like mortal man and birds and animals and reptiles.

24Therefore God gave them over in the sinful desires of their hearts to sexual impurity for the degrading of their bodies with one another. 25They exchanged the truth of God for a lie, and worshiped and served created things rather than the Creator—who is forever praised. Amen.

26Because of this, God gave them over to shameful lusts. Even their women exchanged natural relations for unnatural ones. 27In the same way the men also abandoned natural relations with women and were inflamed with lust for one another. Men committed indecent acts with other men, and received in themselves the due penalty for their perversion.

28Furthermore, since they did not think it worthwhile to retain the knowledge of God, he gave them over to a depraved mind, to do what ought not to be done. 29They have become filled with every kind of wickedness, evil, greed and depravity. They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit and malice. They are gossips, 30slanderers, God-haters, insolent, arrogant and boastful; they invent ways of doing evil; they disobey their parents; 31they are senseless, faithless, heartless, ruthless. 32Although they know God's righteous decree that those who do such things deserve death, they not only continue to do these very things but also approve of those who practice them.

Romans 1:18-32

Pray that I would be a light there, they need lights and I need prayer. Another thing I'm praying about is that I would meet more Christians and that we would be able to meet together and pray and read the Word. I don't really have the same schedule as for instance, Jaho. So basically all the Christians that I know, I don't see. Maybe God is doing that so that I am more friendly to others, I don't know... But His plan is great and I will trust Him!

Oh and you can read an update on Molly and Betsy's Dad here. Please keep their family in your prayers!